one didn’t want me, and the other doesn’t understand that it hurt.  I just wish I could close my head to not think about the former, and open my head to the latter so they would see how I feel.  Is it selfish that I always feel sad?  I always feel like I should be happy for the sake of those around me.  I want to be around my friends, but I drive them away by being someone I’m not just so that I don’t appear to be sad.  And when that happens, I just feel abandoned all over again.  What a paradox…

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